hey hey this is me..ahahhas...its shows a side of me which is different! mainly i dun realie like myself for me..i just sometimes find thaT life is really unfair and sucks to the damn freaking core!! i mean its not like as if everything's gotta go my way, i mean like give and take u knw... its just realie hard now for me and i wished sometimes i wasnt in this kinda state where i would start thinking and not being myself... my friends can see that im being diff towards them but yet i still put up with a smile and tell them that everything's fine and they dnt have to worry.. me and my lies to my friends.. hah! wad couldn;tt be or get worser? the guy that im dating is a pratical loser! see told u so my LIFE SIMPLY SUCKS TO THE DARN FREAKING CORE!AARRGGHH!!!!!!!!!!!! its nt thati wanna call him a loser and al but i simply dnt have the trust cause he's a bartender and u knw that bartender gets girls EASILY!!! oh well i just dunno and hope everything and my life would be smooth-going! At the end of the day,honestly speaking, I MISS THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE WHOM I'VE SHARED EVERYTHING WITH..JUST THAT RECENTLY 9 MONTHS AGO I'VE LOST HIM...would love to take him back but fear of losing him the third time so nope aint cumming back to the past! Moving on mich...