HAH!!! Today i did a FCUKING BIG MISTAKE and i FCUKING REGRET IT TO THE DAMN CORE!!
WTF CAN I DO TO FCUKING CHANGE IT? i cant do much and i wished i could tell him im sorry but i know its no use cause its my fault and i cant do much about it.. HAH! best joke of the day sia with wadever freaking happened.. hais i swear ive got no FCUKING MOOD to blog but ya wadver..im just gonna end it here then. when i feel better or wat then i come back and start blogging!!!!

hey hey back to post..by myself again!
hmmm im just thinking that its realie useless for me having a darn relationship if every guy i go with turns out the same..i mean they do!

hah! its cause i dun hv the looks...so mainly to guys its goes to say:
COVER THE FACE,FUCK THE BASE kinda girl..

hmmm..oh well i keep telling myself that one fine day there will be ur someone who loves
you for you and you dnt have to worry bout that...
but everytime i get a new fling or shld i say date? it still no use..
cause it'll be nice in the begining but towards the end ill be stuck in this deep deep hole
which i realie am trying not to fall in over again time and time!!!

i just wished that whichever guy it may be next will love me for me cause honestly
im getting sick and tired of love that sometimes i wish i was a lesbian or bisexual
cause love to me semms to hurt more and more each time i try to move on..
guess its fated that im suppose to belong to him and only him?
HAH! if he realie chges for the better ya i woludnt hesistate to take him back but the fact that he has alr slept and even went on with my cousin just makes me let go each time i try to give him a chance again!

hmmmm dun wanna think about my past already..just hurts.HAH!
Michelle michelle wad have u turned too..?
i myself dunnoe anymore.
hopefully ill find my singapore Jay Sean!
HAHA! stil got time to joke...

there's something missing in me whenever i look at my pics..like im thinking to myself when will i ever stop faking it! i mean like if u see it carefully, you'll know that im nt happy in the inside at all and im just faking it off to others..its not that i want to but i just dun wanna see or tell them that im not in a good state to settle in... but i dun hv to tell them for them to notice and when they do notice im not myself,they'll start questioning and ill be like dumbfounded... but give them a smile and say that everythings fine even though its not and sucks badly! ahhahahas:)see u get wat i mean?!? errr i just understand myself but understand others..i mean like i put others before myself and its nt suppose to like this in any way but i just cant see if any of my friends are sad or down,ill just start feeling the way they are and start being there for them and comforting them and all..hmmm just love the way i care bout my friends..i mean its michelle!hah! just a simple advice for my friends...

Dont keep puttin urself down,

always do the best everything,

never give up neither look down on urselves

neither discriminate urselves and think positively in life even if the journey is a hard and tough journey!

hey hey..this is my hunny minyi!!
damn i love her loads.. shes super sweet that she came
dowwn all the wat from sengkang to bedok just to see
me and take pics.... DAMN I LOVE U HUNNY!
met in nursing for one and a half yr..cause after that i left
nursing...thats super sad:(
awww i will always be loving and missing JR0801E!
Love u guys and gals lots..
All the BEST for ur nursing carrer and everything in LIFE
BEBEIS!

hey hey this is me..ahahhas...its shows a side of me which is different! mainly i dun realie like myself for me..i just sometimes find thaT life is really unfair and sucks to the damn freaking core!! i mean its not like as if everything's gotta go my way, i mean like give and take u knw... its just realie hard now for me and i wished sometimes i wasnt in this kinda state where i would start thinking and not being myself... my friends can see that im being diff towards them but yet i still put up with a smile and tell them that everything's fine and they dnt have to worry.. me and my lies to my friends.. hah! wad couldn;tt be or get worser? the guy that im dating is a pratical loser! see told u so my LIFE SIMPLY SUCKS TO THE DARN FREAKING CORE!AARRGGHH!!!!!!!!!!!! its nt thati wanna call him a loser and al but i simply dnt have the trust cause he's a bartender and u knw that bartender gets girls EASILY!!! oh well i just dunno and hope everything and my life would be smooth-going! At the end of the day,honestly speaking, I MISS THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE WHOM I'VE SHARED EVERYTHING WITH..JUST THAT RECENTLY 9 MONTHS AGO I'VE LOST HIM...would love to take him back but fear of losing him the third time so nope aint cumming back to the past! Moving on mich...

THats my bebeiBABE... i lover her so daammnn much larhs i tel u

will anybody believe we were friends that wantd to punch each other in the face and was like bitching bout each other and just practically went to the extent of wat other friends dont do to each other.. ahhahahahs

The best thing is after basically every fight well ask each other if we;re HUNGRYand like GO EAT TOGETHER!

see tolD u we're really wwird but friends that are TRUE TO EACH OTHER..

shes HELPED me a lot to the extent of................

this is one of the memories which is hard to forget cause ive finally found my true GF wohs been thru my ups and dwns and im super HAPPY TO HAVE HER BY MY SIDE:)

life simply sucks right now!

Life reallie sucks right now as ive been like grounded for like two bloody weeks and the best thing is i've A dance performane coming up this damn freaking SUNDAY and guess wat i cant fuking go and have to let my crew down... i know i did mistakes without realising but still i know wat i've done wrong and wont like do it again.. oh well...